Sorry for your loss bro
I’ve never owned a pet, family is against it and where i live…
I know I wouldn’t be too responsible of an owner…
I would like to have one someday…
I’ve interacted with a few cats for a long time my life
One ran over by car
, another… I saw it petrified along the street after a few days of not seeing, had flies over it. The people cleaning up there told me to leave it to them to handle…
Had a time when a kitten I knew suddenly just disappeared…
Also the times I had to leave the country, had to leave the cats I knew…
All those times felt heartbroken bruh. Not as close as living with one like family and losing it entirely, but yeah.
Hope things get better for ye eventually maybe one day… maybe… rescue a stray if you happen to meet along the way, its just life…